~Thou art the Potter, I am the clay~

I have thrown pity parties and decorated with a big banner that boldly stated, "Why me?". However, with each day that passes, God uses the very situation that I whine and even despair about, to expose my weaknesses. He brings to light the flaws and imperfections, some of which I already knew about, and many others that I had either ignored or had not realized were an issue until I came to this place.

"For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it." ~Matthew 16:25

I'm learning more about myself in this season of my life than at any time before. God is challenging me and molding me into the person He knows I should be. And, He doesn't leave me even when I complain and whine and halfheartedly follow. He is showing me that I give up way too easily and allow Satan to plague me with doubt. At times, it is a painful experience because of my own stubbornness and refusal to yield to, "Not my will, but Thine."

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!

Thou art the Potter, I am the clay.

Mold me and make me after Thy will,

While I am waiting, yielded and still.

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!

Search me and try me, Master, today!

Whiter than snow, Lord, wash me just now,

As in Thy presence humbly I bow.

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!

Wounded and weary, help me, I pray!

Power, all power, surely is Thine!

Touch me and heal me, Savior divine.

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!

Hold o'er my being absolute sway!

Fill with Thy Spirit till all shall see

Christ only, always, living in me!

~George C. Stebbins, 1907